“ Vortex-Seasons ”

Vortex - Seasons, 2022

Where am I?

How come I'm still here?

What season is this?

Why is it going in circles?

Will I ever get out of here?

Why do I keep coming to the same spot?

I can't be here!!

I don't wanna be here!!!

I don't wanna feel like shit!!!

What do I do to push this feeling away?

What can I do to not feel like this?

Was I lost all along?

Why did it come back?

How did it come back?

It doesn't feel alright!!!

Looks like I never left!

It's gonna be like this!!!

BUT SEASONS ARE STILL ROLL ON BY

Since her passing, the passage of seasons has become a poignant journey through the five stages of grief. In the initial throes of denial, the world seemed suspended, frozen in the moment of loss. As spring emerged, bargaining echoed in the blossoming flowers, pleading for the return of what was taken. The scorching heat of summer mirrored the anger that simmered within, a relentless blaze fueled by the injustice of her absence. With the arrival of autumn, I found solace in the quiet acceptance of reality, leaves falling like fragments of pain settling into a resigned understanding. Now, as winter envelopes everything in a hushed serenity, I navigate the final stage of grief, embracing the cold truth while finding a fragile sense of peace. The seasons may have passed, but the intricate dance of grief continues, weaving a tapestry of healing amidst the changing tides of time.